| | I watch as the rain falls…
I watch as it tries to wash away my tears…
I watch as the people scurry away…
I walk out into the rain and I yell…
I try to yell all my pain away…
I don’t know where to turn to…
I don’t know who to tell
I can feel the pain inside me grow stronger…
But in the end…
I’m alone…once again…
And I watch…as the rain falls…
The blinding wind of torment…
Lay they’re eyes on me…
I lay in dooms wake…
Waiting to be slain…
I gaze out into your eyes…
And see deep down into your soul…
In this slight moments ease…
I feel a slight repose…
I drop my gaze and ease my breath…
Thinking of you is my only regret…
As I feel the pain of death flow through me…
I scream into your gaze…
I’ve been called a soldier…
I’ve been called a loser…
I’ve been called a loner…
I’ve been called a fucking gay ass faggot…
I’ve been called many things and not very many people know it…
But deep down inside…
No matter how hard I try…
Im all alone…
Im not a soldier…
Im not a loser…
Im not a loner…I
m not a fucking gay ass faggot…
But…I am ME…
I am a tormented soul…
I am a wandering warrior…
I am who I am…And I will always be me…
The moon silently watches over the world…
Its gaze laying upon everything and nothing…
The light of its darkness falling into nothingness…
It lives in the shadows…Of its brother sun…
Never being able to live on its own…
As it lives in its bittersweet sorrow…
It tries to find its meaning…
It lights the way of the night…
Casting its gaze once more upon nothing…
Leading the way…Upon the path of its sorrow…
The winds howl in the night…
Carrying with it…My ghastly plight…
I have nothing left to hold on to…
Nothing left to care for…
Nothing left in this world…
Everything I ever lived for…
All rested with you…
And now that your not here…
I’m left alone with my fear…
People step on me…
People hate me…
People want to hurt me…
People want to kill me…
People all laugh at me…
But in the end…
The people won’t faze me…
The people won’t change me…
No matter how hard the people try…
NOTHING will ever make me change…
NOTHING will ever stop me…
No matter…how hard they try…
My strength will always be with me…
It all comes down to this…
Everything I have ever done…
All comes together…
You all call me a hero…
But I’m nothing but a zero…
No matter what you think I do…
It doesn’t matter…
Because in the end…
Anyone could have done it…
You all look at me like I’m a god…
You all think I’m so great…
But really…I’m not…
I’m not a hero…I’m not even a zero…
I’m nothing but what I choose to be…
When people ask me if I’m a hero…
I laugh and say…I’m no hero…
I’m just a zero…
i awoke to the truth today...
a truth that has hit me deeply...
i realised what i did...
and now its too late to change it...i
m so sorry for how i hurt you...
but now its too late to change...
no matter how hard i try i cant seem to let you go...
im here with out you...
and im all alone...t
he darkness is coming...
i feel my blood drip...
i love you...
do you love me?
I lie here...awaiting your return...
awaiting the pain that will follow...
awaiting the everlasting hate that i bear towards you...
and strangely...i love you...
this bitter pain...
this incomparable sadnes...
this destructive lunacy...
its all because of you...
but...
i still love you...
i dont know...how to express these feeling i have for you...
sometimes i hate me...
sometimes i hate you...
sometimes i feel like dying for you...
sometimes i wish you would die for me...
is this love?what else could it be...
it is only another part of my silent pain...
and i cry in your arms again
...and ask...for the first time....
do you love me?
the autumn breeze gently whispers your name...
i call out into the world...
only to be looked at with a disturbed gaze...
i look around...i find nothing...
i run and run and run...only to get nowhere...
i scream out in agony...and find that no one is out there...
i fall over and cry...im here...and im alone...
i scream out your name...as death cradles me in its arms...
im alone...and thats the only thing...that i can say i have...
i see your face as i look out into the distance...
only to learn that you were never really there...
in the end you used me...
betrayed me...left me alone and hated...
at this time...i wish you would die...
i wish you could die horrbly and painfully...
but then i realise that death would be freedom...
so i choose instead...to make you suffer horribly for all eternity...
you leave me no choice...my hatred boils deeply...
but deep down inside...what hurts me the most...
is the fact that...i still love you...
I see your face as I look out into the distance…
Only to find that you were never really there…
As I turn…I look towards the door…You stand there…In your hollow glory…
Your eyes reflecting everything and nothing…
Your shape…Filling the entrance to life or death…
You step towards me…I scream…
I try to stop you…But there is nothing there…
Your still coming…I’m still screaming…
I awake with a start…And realize it was just a dream…
I look up…Only to see you standing there…
staring back at me...
in this light i cant hide...
in this darkness i cant find...
im alone in my sorrow alone in my pain
this time your not here
this time your out there
this time im alone again
wallowing in my pain
sitting in my despair...
crying in my darkness
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| | Posted 8/14/2006 2:36 PM - 34 Views - 10 eProps - 14 comments
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